Lonely jealousy

Why do I spoil everything?
Why do I need the attention of your jeweled eyes?
Why do I crave your tainted lips?
Why do I scatter my dreams in the playful wind?
Why do I give away my fears to fireflies?
Why do I await the numbness of your serpent's hiss?
Why do I rain on your parade?
Why do I smoke your soul in every cigarette with patience?
Why do I feel the need to play?
Why do I always tear to pieces with my poisoned word your confidence?
Oh,I forgot.I'm human.
And I let my lonely jealousy
get the best of me.
Sorry...