The joke's on you!

Din secunda 1 de cand am reusit (cu eforturi consistente) a-mi depasi frica de moarte m-a oarecum fascinat.Nu simt ca alunec neaparat pe panta morbidului,insa suflul ei plin de lame ce descos metodic rani invizibile imi aminteste sangele sa curga mai repede,mai involburat,mai rosu-nu se stie cat va mai curge...Din cand in cand imi este reimprospatata imaginea tatuajului individual impregnat pe incheieturile tuturor,fara exceptii, si certitudinea ca niciun laser paranormal nu va putea sa stearga cerneala fatala-"muritor".Asa ca,decat sa ma ascund dupa cortina disperarii,negarii,prefer sa o las undeva intr-o paralela mai mult sau mai putin indepartata,si sa-mi dau silinta ca drumurile sa nu ni se intersecteze prea curand.In acelasi ton plumburiu,mentionez ca am scris undeva,candva,demult...
"Moartea...nu e o trecere,asa cum cred unii.Nu!E un nume.Defapt,mult prea multe:femei,barbati,masini,iluzii,alcool,boli,arme,dragoste,indiferenta,dezastre,ura,ignoranta,
mandrie,inevitabil...Nume de lucruri considerate acum la fel de banale ca pasta de dinti,sucul,viata."
Nu sunt atat de "fraiera" sa iau in calcul vreodata sinuciderea ca o optiune de "eliberare" dintr-un cotidian majoritar tern deoarece,asa cum spunea cineva,"Sinuciderea e o solutie permanenta pentru o problema temporara".
Viata,umple-mi fiecare celula si imbata-ma cu fiinta ta eterna!Cat mai am timp,cat mai am timp,cat mai am timp...
P.S.Versurile unor cantece fredonate obsesiv zilele astea. :D

"Slow motion"

Miss Jones taught me English
But I think I just shot her son
'Cause he owed me money
With a bullet in the chest you cannot run

Now he's bleeding in a vacant lot
The one in the summer where we used to smoke pot
I guess I didn't mean it
But man, you shoulda seen it
His flesh explode

Slow motion see me let go
We tend to die young
Slow motion see me let go
What a brother knows
Slow motion see me let go

Now the cops will get me
But girl, if you would let me
I'll take your pants off
I got a little bit of blow we could both get off
Later bathing in the afterglow
Two lines of coke I cut with Drano
And her nose starts to bleed
A most beautiful ruby red

Slow motion see me let go
We'll remember these days
Slow motion see me let go
Urban life decays
Slow motion see me let go

And at home
My sister's eating paint chips again
Maybe that's why she's insane
I shut the door to her moaning
And I shoot smack in my veins
Wouldn't you?
See my neighbor's beating his wife
Because he hates his life
There's a knock to his fist as he swings
Oh man, what a beautiful thing
And death slides close to me
Won't grow old to be
Junkie wino creep

Hollywood glamorized my wrath
I'm a young urban psychopath
I incite murder for your entertainment
'Cause I needed the money
What's your excuse?
The joke's on you

Slow motion see me let go
Oh yeah
Slow motion see me let go
Slow motïon see me let go

(Original song by Third Eye Blind)

"I will follow you into the dark"

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you ïnto the dark

(Death Cab For Cutie-old love of mine...)

"...stele de mucegai,cu gene de fire verzi,sprancene negru dur si buze vechi,prafuite..."