As much as I love spending more time with my folks,waking up at 3:45 a.m. to catch the 5:15 train to Bucharest isn't the most exciting thing to do on a Monday morning.I can guarantee you that!
Needless to say,I arrived hungry,tired and ice cold.Blessed be coffee,for I would not be standing here now,somewhat conscious and deeply troubled.Long story short,life sucks.
I mean it.From the bottom of my heart.And my faulty knees.And my drained soul.I just want to go home,away from this place and the person that it's making me put on display for the sanity of others rather than my own.You want to get your ass kicked?Just tell me I'm "exaggerating",that I'm "overreacting" to stuff-it will be the last thing that you do.Seriously.You have no idea how lost I feel right now,like I'm one step away from being pushed off a cliff into perdition.
I can stand this fuckin' state no more.To Hell with all these silly things,with obligations,with "success",with you all!It isn't worth the trouble,nothing is in this world!I am done.I really am.It feels like I'm decomposing,one bone and one tendon and one chunk of flesh at a time.If only I could just...
I'm starting to hate the subway and its sea-like torment of a motion.College is pretty much up there too,work and chores and endless books included.Don't even get me started on people because this is one of those days when murder is an option,provided the right circumstances and/or alibi.I sound insane,don't I?Maybe because I'm losing it,I don't know.What do you think?Don't answer,it's irrelevant,anyway.I know my hatred towards the majority of things nowadays is starting to show in the way I speak,in my body language,in my withering soul.But I can't command my feelings,neither do I wish to.Not now,not ever.
I'm so sleepy it's actually starting to ache.So I'll call it day.A shitty day,but a day nonetheless.I can only pray for tomorrow to bring more energy and sanity.Otherwise...Well,let's say I'll be even more unpleasant.Imagine that horrific scenario!Oh,God,no!
I just remembered: I ran out of coffee.Shit.